When
Dennis Merzel began his formal Zen studies
three decades ago, his Japanese Zen master's
methods left him perplexed.
"DIE ON YOUR CUSHION!" Koryu
Roshi exhorted his novices who sat cross-legged
on cushions facing a wall at the Los Angeles
Zen Center.
"BECOME THE WALL!"
"I don't know what the hell he's talking about," Merzel remembers
thinking. "And even if I knew, I'm not doing it."
From that unlikely beginning, Brooklyn-born
Merzel has gone on to become spiritual leader
to thousands of Zen Buddhists around the world.
But Merzel -- now called Genpo Roshi -- always
knew the traditional Eastern approach to Zen
didn't work for many Westerners. They don't
like being told to die. Although he eventually
realized the Zen master was commanding him
to "die" in order to be reborn as
a more compassionate being, he thought there
had to be a better way to unlock the Zen door
to Westerners.
For decades, Genpo searched for the key to
enable Westerners to shift from identifying
with their own self to being identified with
the whole cosmos -- to the Universal or Big
Mind. Three years ago, he finally found it.
Call it the Western path to enlightenment.
Through a combination of Western therapy and
Zen practice, Roshi now shows Zen beginners
in one-day seminars at Salt Lake City's Kanzeon
Zen Center how to achieve an awakening that
has taken many Zen practitioners years.
And it's all possible, he says, because Westerners
are suckers for a magic word: Please.
"We'll do anything for anyone if they say please," Roshi says.
At recent Saturday seminar, Roshi -- wearing
khakis and a short-sleeved black shirt -- strode
into an airy upstairs room to take his place
in a director's chair before a room of 60 people
sitting in padded chairs grouped in a half-circle.
"This might seem bold, this might seem strange," he tells the group, "that
you will have in one day -- before lunch actually -- the clarity and experience
that a Zen master has. But Zen is seen as the school of sudden enlightenment.
And we're just making sure it remains sudden."
His technique to temporarily silence the "controller" --
one's ego or commanding voice -- is so simple
that it's surprising it wasn't discovered earlier,
he says. But such an insight wasn't possible
as long as Zen remained an Eastern-centered
discipline.
"What we're going to do is get permission from your ego to abandon itself,
to stay in cold storage for a while," he says.
Roshi assures us we are not being shown a shortcut
that will rob us of our own struggles. "You
will still have to walk your path," he
says. "All this will do is give you some
wisdom as you walk this path."
After spending as much as 10 hours a day, nine
months a year, sitting in meditation, Roshi
wondered if he was making enlightenment too
easy.
"That's a lot of time on a cushion," he says. "And to think
someone dares to have this experience in a day?"
But then he realized his struggles served a
purpose. If a group climbing a mountain ran
out of water and sent a couple of stronger
members ahead to find more, do they then bring
the water back to the group, even though no
one else has climbed the mountain?
Of course they do. Even after the group drinks
the water, each member still has to climb the
mountain.
"When I realized the folly of where I was stuck, this process came like
that," Roshi says with a snap of his fingers.
And the more people who live in a state of
compassionate awakening the better, he says.
Consciousness shouldn't be limited to monks,
Zen centers and a smattering of individuals.
Then Roshi asks to speak to our "controller." To
signify our willingness and readiness to allow
him access, we are to shift our chairs a few
inches to reinforce the shift in our perspective.
"Who am I speaking to?" he asks.
"Controller," we say in unison.
The controller's job is to control, he says.
What functions might the controller serve,
he asks?
"Protection," someone answers. "Survival," says someone
else. "Somebody needs to be in charge."
Roshi then asks the controller for permission
to speak to the voice of the skeptic. We shift
our chairs.
"Who am I speaking to?"
"Skeptic," we say.
"Your job," he says, "is to be skeptical, to doubt, to question."
When invited to express our doubts, the answers
pour out: "Should I even be here?" "Enlightenment
just can't be this easy." "Am I really
going to get my money's worth?" "What
if I find enlightenment?" "What
if it's not what I want to know?" "Zen
mastery in Salt Lake? Uh huh."
We check in with the voice of trust, establishing
that that voice, at least, believes people
are basically good, then return briefly to
the controller -- "I feel better," says
one wag -- before Roshi asks us for a clear
channel to Big Mind.
We're right on schedule. It's not yet lunchtime.
"Who am I talking to?" asks Roshi.
"Big Mind," we answer.
Prodding us, Roshi asks us to note the shape,
size, form and colors of Big Mind.
"Can you find a boundary? Can you find a limit? Can you find a beginning?
When were you born? When will you die? Can anything hurt you? Can anything
destroy you?"
Incredibly, less than three hours after meeting
Roshi, everyone in the room seems to be identifying
with the cosmos. For participant Sally Small,
Roshi's questions seemed irrelevant. "Big
Mind is an all-inclusive frame of mind," she
said after the seminar. "It doesn't get
stuck in one shape or one color or anything."
For Michelle Larsen, Big Mind mirrored a near-death
experience she survived after a motorcycle
accident a decade ago. "I've tried to
explain it for 10 years," Larsen later
said. "To know it could happen to everyone
else. . ."
We return to the controller. After experiencing
Big Mind, what advice would you give to the
self, Roshi asks?
"Release," someone says. "Relax," says another. "Die
on your cushion," says a third, to laughter.
We switch to the voice of Peace, then to God,
or the creator, before Roshi advises us to
go to lunch as the integrated self. "Be
mindful of all the voices," he says.
"I don't know whether I'm in Zen class or in therapy," says one participant
as we file down the stairs.
After lunch, we voyage through the voices of
non-seeking, Big Mind, big heart and peace
before Roshi calls us back to the voice of
the controller. For Larsen, the return was
traumatic. "It's like you're being crushed," she
said. "It's almost audible."
We then look at the voices of wisdom and compassion,
and examine the difference between acting in
the voice of the controller -- the voice we
probably consider our own -- and the voice
of the Master.
"The Master should be the owner," said Roshi. "The controller
should be the servant. If you're run by the controller, you're run by greed.
If you're run by the Master, you're run by wisdom, compassion and responsibility."
But we can't live our Western lives -- balancing
marriage, religion, sexuality, children and
home -- in the voice of the Master, as can
Asian monks in monasteries.
"Trust me
on this one," said Roshi. "I
was Master before I got married. I had to drop
that one. I'm saving you a lot of pain. You'll
thank me in five years. Don't go home in the
voice of the Master. Go home in the voice of
the integrated self."
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